Who *IS* Cindy Lou?

After receiving some comments, I thought I should explain why I am writing this blog and, more specifically, why I am writing what I am writing and sharing it with those with whom I'm sharing it. The comment I just received confirms my reasons for writing this, which I'll now share.

When I started this nearly 2 years ago, I called it "Who Is Cindy Lou?" My given name is Cynthia Ann. I've always gone by Cindy, and a friend's dad called me Cindy Lou. So she is kind of my "personna." Basically, I am writing this to share with you who I am and really, in a way, to find that out for myself as well. As you'll see through what I share, I am going through some very rough times right now. So another reason I am writing this and sharing so personally is so that I can somehow find some healing through it. I will try to be as discreet as I can in the details, but I want those close to me to know what I am going through and what I am feeling. Some of you may be able to help me through your own experiences, but this is for my friends and family both near and especially far to keep up with me.

Most of you don't know each other or even me personally; many of you are dear friends I've found through various online sites. Others of you I do know personally, and those of you who do know each other already know what is going on. Therefore, I feel okay with sharing certain details, plus I am only using initials. As you will see, if you didn't already know, is that I am a very open person. I share quite deeply, perhaps too much, but that is how I think you can get to know me. I don't expect reciprocation, but I want to foster an environment where you can share just as openly with me. Again, if you recognize yourself and prefer that I do not talk about you at all, please let me know. I don't want anyone to be uncomfortable, even at the expense of my emotional healing and self-discovery.

I need to go to church now, but listening to ABBA this morning as I got ready has been very therapeutic, esp. "Take a Chance on Me." ("If you change your mind, I'll be first in line . . . if you're all alone when the pretty birds have flown, honey, I'm still free, take a chance on me"). I am vascillating now, tho, between "I hope he comes to his senses" and "I need to come to mine!" I had a bad night, not sleeping much, but not for lack of trying! SO today may be difficult, but I have a big family gathering today, so that should help. All of us will be together for the first time since August and who knows when again.

God bless you all today and always!